i'm going to start over...

.....completely....

every single thing.


Its going to be a different me.

I never realized how hard this summer was going to be..
....until this week..

this week was one of the hardest weeks i have ever had to go through...

First i was sick i felt shitty..missed to days of school on top of that, so I felt apart and sperated from my friends.

Then not seeing you or talking to was hell. And you were only gone like 4 days. just think a whole month this summer...i don't what i am going to do.

I never realized how much i needed you and depended on you until you weren't there...
It's like the saying "you never realized how much you had until you lose it." (or something along those lines)

now i know i didn't lose you and i'm not over reacting but just by now being near you...i feel like a part of me is missing.

I love you with all of heart *more than words* and i want you to know how much i care for you.

You are my everything.

R.I.P Rudy

I love you, And I miss you.

But it was your time. Good-Bye Rude.

sometimes i just don't know anymore but i'm not going to bring it up again...because i will be considered a drama queen..."katie your overreacting"thats what she'll say so we'll hope it gets better ya know what i hate that sometimes it seems like i'm going all the work.

And i don't want this to hurt feelings and maybe i shouldn't post it but...its the way i feel..

i feel farther away and i hate it i can't be detatched i need you in my day your what gets me through and i mean that in a "none lesbian" sort of way...your my other half.

And i do..i hate being the drama queen you dont' notice and you don't notice and you don't seem to care. but....prove me wrong.

I miss you.

All I ever wanted Was a love to be true More than just enough to get me by I want a love to see me through I don’t need another well spent night Another clever, sideways glance I wanna look my baby in the eye And know there’s nothin’ left to chance So if you’re tired of bein’ lonely Beat up and confused Darlin’ there is only One thing you can do Come to me I’ll be the one who’s waiting Come to me I got what you need Come to me Won’t be no hesitating I know what you mean to me I’m gonna hold out for the one I want Ain’t gonna settle for less Cause the kind of love I’m lookin’ for, baby You can’t fake, you can’t finesse I ain’t lookin’ for the kind of man, baby Can’t stand a little shaky ground He’ll give me fire and tenderness And got the guts to stick around So if you’re tired of bein’ lonely Beat up and confused Darlin’ there is only One thing you can do Come to me I’ll be the one who’s waiting Come to meI got what you need Come to me Won’t be no hesitating I know what you mean to me......

Ringing in the New Year with you pretty damn amazing..if you think about it...

i never thought it would happen but it did it was spectacular...and i love how well you "mesh" with them...its as if you have always there..right in that place with the close, happy, beautiful family.

I want you to be apart of it. i want it to be our close, happy, beautiful, family. i mean it when i say forever..and I loved more than anything being there with you to start a new year. it means alot and..

i know this is the start of something wonderful..