Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Tell Me About Yourselves or Just Learn More About Me

Name:
Kathryn (kabie, kate, Katie, bambi etc) Larkin

Birthday:
October 13

Birthplace:
Lowell, Ma (but I lived in Chelmsford)

Current Location:
Pepperell, Ma

Eye Color:
Shit brown

Hair Color:
Brown

Height:
5”4’

Right Handed or Left Handed:
Right handed but I wish I was left lol

Your Heritage:
African American, Native american, a tiny bit of French, and Irish

The Shoes You Wore Today:
Flip flops

Your Weakness:
Love, trusting people

Your Fears:
Being alone

Your Perfect Pizza:
Pepperoni

Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:
Get good grades and get a boyfriend

Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:
"Lol"

Thoughts First Waking Up:
Depends on the morning

Your Best Physical Feature:
People say my smile but my fav. Is my butt J

Your Bedtime:
Umm I don’t really have one but like 10:30 during school year

Your Most Missed Memory:
When I was happy with “him”

Pepsi or Coke:
Diet Pepsi

MacDonalds or Burger King:
McDonalds ((but i try to stay away from both))

Single or Group Dates:
Doesn’t matter

Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:
Lipton

Chocolate or Vanilla:
Vanilla Ice Cream, but chocolate with anything else.

Cappuccino or Coffee:
coffee

Do you Smoke:
Not reg.

Do you Swear:
Yes. Unfortunately

Do you Sing:
Yes all the time

Do you Shower Daily:
Most of the time

Have you Been in Love:
yes

Do you want to go to College:
yes

Do you want to get Married:
yes

Do you belive in yourself:
I have very low self esteem

Do you get Motion Sickness:
Not usually unless I read in a car

Do you think you are Attractive:
sometimes

Are you a Health Freak:
no

Do you get along with your Parents:
I pretend to get along with my dad (its very fake) but my mom is one of my best friends

Do you like Thunderstorms:
I love them!!!

Do you play an Instrument:
I sing and I can play the cello

In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:
yes

In the past month have you Smoked:
yes

In the past month have you been on Drugs:
No, unless you call alcohol a drug

In the past month have you gone on a Date:
no

In the past month have you gone to a Mall:
yes

In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:
Not a whole box haha

In the past month have you eaten Sushi:
Nope. I’m not a fan of sushi

In the past month have you been on Stage:
Nope

In the past month have you been Dumped:
Sort of

In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:
nope

In the past month have you Stolen Anything:
nope

Ever been Drunk:
yes

Ever been called a Tease:
No, not that I know of.

Ever been Beaten up:
nope

Ever Shoplifted:
nope

How do you want to Die:
I want to die a peaceful death, of just dying from old age, like just fall asleep and never wake up again.

What do you want to be when you Grow Up:
I have no idea and that scares the shit out of me.

What country would you most like to Visit:
Umm..there are so many places I want to visit

In a Boy/Girl..

Favourite Eye Color:
Don’t care

Favourite Hair Color:
Don’t care

Short or Long Hair:
It depends on the guy

Height:
Taller then me

Weight:
More then me

Best Clothing Style:
I like guys who where Abercrombie I think that looks really good or American eagle but I’ve never gone out with anyone who where’s either of those.

Number of Drugs I have taken:
2 ((If you count alcohol as a drug.))

Number of CDs I own:
Too many to count

Number of Piercings:
2 on each of my ears and my bellybutton I used to have 3 on one of my ears and 4 on the other but they closed

Number of Tattoos:
None but I really want one

Number of things in my Past I Regret:
I try not to regret things ;)

Everyone take this or comment to my answers. It's fun!

Saturday, July 23, 2005

I'm Sorry

you mean the world to me and i hate that i make you feel like you have to walk on egg shells i don't want it to be that way. you are my best friend in the whole world and i don't like it when i get you mad; because ((to be honest your scary when your mad)) and it makes me sad. i hate fighting with you it makes me feel like shit. i just love hanging out with you and i'm sorry i get upset sometimes when plans don't come out the way they were planned to. i don't want to make a bunch of drama in your life that you don't need. i just want to be the one you come to if you need anyting, the one you cry to if you need to cry ((because lets face it you never cry)), and i just want to be here and be your best friend. thats it. i'm not here to make a comotion. dont feel like you have to walk on eggshells because its not like that i love you.
your my birdy my beautiful, green eyed birdy :)

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

time to start over.

I will be ok.
:)

Monday, July 18, 2005

What do I do?

i let you in. i told you everything about me. i am a very open and honest person. i trusted you. i always bragged about you..told people how amazing you were..((because after all this i still think you are, amazingly enough.))

people never really saw the real you. they saw the guy who was a little up tight and stiff. but thats not how you are with me. we could talk for hours, infact we both agreed that we talked to much. but honestly i didn't mind.

i let you have something..something that i keep locked up tight and i only give it to people i trust, i trusted you. i gave you my heart. some may say this was a mistake and i would tell them they were mistaken, because you gave yours right back to me.

but now once again i begin to second guess myself. what i gave you was special, it may not have been much to you ((although i thought it was)) i thought you cared but apparently i have done something so wrong..that made you crush it. you crushed my heart.

i hate to complain but it hurts. i can't believe you of all people would do this to me.
i thought you loved me but i guess i was mistaken.

i miss you. and i love you. (( i'm considered crazy for still feeling both of these things)) but you are my superman.

i can't just get rid of your smell, the way you drum on everything, your hugs, your voice, and your kiss. the list goes on and i can't just forget about you. you still are my everything.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

i love you. i hope you know that.


i'm still here.
your my superman...

Friday, July 08, 2005

i'm done.

i'm done crying over you.
i hate this feeling that i have. i feel like we've lost it. but then i think thats impossible.
but then i second guess myself and get worried that its over.
i don't like wondering..
i feel seperated and far away from you..literally and emotionally.
we could not have lost it over this we had it all going for us.
we could talk about anything and right now i feel like, you have completley brushed me off.
and this is it its over?
it can't be i say this biting my lip, in hopes that i am wrong.

i love you with all my heart...you know that right?
i want it back the way it used to be.
i'm going to give you some space.
and i want you to know i love you. muah*
**more then words**
your still my superman