Its here.

that time of year is offically here.

And I couldn't be more thrilled.

As of right now I am exactly where I want to be.

I am happy.

For me this time of year seems like the beggining.

A second chance. A time to start over.

so...

Do just that.

Forget about what "he" said to "her" and how "she" hates "him."

And start a new.

Forget the bad things from the past.

Take a deep breathe.

And begin again.

Because this autumn is going to be great.

To recite the words of Gavin..."Oh this is the start of something good, Don't you agree?"

On the other hand.

I still stick to the fact that we can make that a habit...
because of how much fun it was. :)

and the walk home was beautiful.
that we agree on.

Chance; A coin toss with two sides, that one tosses into the air as many times as one wants the odds remain the same.

Sometimes.

Sometimes when i sit and think,

I think of you.

Sometimes when I dream,

I dream of you.

Someimes when i sing.

I sing to you.

Everything i do

I do for you.

Sometimes, I mean just saying,

Sometimes thats what i do.

a bit of a predicament.

you know when you first start liking someone...ya know like a crush?

well anyway this may not happen to you, but i happens to me. I get this feeling in my stomach..some may call it butterflies.

you can get this feeling with other things, and noramally i don't like it.

but in this case i do. very much actually.

you can feel yourself get all warm and tingly and your stomach does that thing.

i love it.

Today i was just talking about you and i started to feel this feeling.

Its great. I'm so happy.

Some people say that this only happens in the begginging and yeah the nervous feeling you get tends to drift after the relationship progresses but, those butterflies that i'm talking about always happen.

They make me just want to attack the person. Just jump on them full force. (like i do to heath.)

These butterflies i feel...there love.

Thats what love is.

Is it to soon?

Clarification.

I am happy. For the first time, in a long time i am actually happy.

Let my clarify:

I am not only happy but i am to be me.

Now I'm not sure how many people can honestly say that.

This is me weather you like or not.

Because I am happy with who i am.

sidenote: I was told in february 2005 (last year) that i needed to wait at least 3 months before i made in rash descions. Now i have waited 7 months . And i just wanted to thank you, beacause i honestly don't think i would be confessing this without you behind me.

Being on my own made me think about what i really wanted

and i found it. No rash descions were made and most everybody

is happy with the outcome. I am really happy that i took the time to be happy with myself.

Thats one of the most important things in the whole world.

You need alone time to realize you can do things on your own (despite what you may think.)

ps--It makes me sad that you arn't being yourself. Because i know you can be so much more-- then the way you're acting right now.

I know you very well and i know that despite what other people may think you are an amazing person but the person your becoming...well, i just don't have room for him in my life.